This was actually the very first time I've written anything even vaguely porny. I've popped my fic porn cherry! *g* Okay, so it wasn't explicit. But still: Whee! *g*
In all seriousness, I think my virginity in this regard is why I was so embarassed- and why it took me three days to write 294 words. *g* But I finally had a break through last night when I stopped trying to visualize it (Insert Tabs A-F into Slots G-L? Scary!) and started trying to feel it instead. I came to the blinding realization that I could channel my embarassment into the story and it would be in character for Vir. Once I did that: Voila!